my eyes are so filled with tears.
no matter how my hands stumbled,
i can't seem to finish wiping them off my face.
all i could think was the past,
and the person who was once in it.
once in a while i try to be blind to it,
but it doesn't change the fact.
everytime i will wonder if you're aright,
i'll start to hate the fact that i don't know anything about you.
and bit by bit i start to think foolishly.
what can i do, where do i go?
all i want to know,
where are you?
do i still exist in you?

Every moment that passed i keep thinking about it
Spoiling my appetite so much i just couldn't eat
Watching other people's life change right in front of me
As my mind starts to wonder all kind of things
If someone spoke to me i might not have heard
It feels like my life has swerved into the curb
Don't mind me while i sit here all alone
I probably don't want anything you owned
Sweet-talking would not work this time
I've got tired of all your lines
One day all these would start to change
And i really look forward to a new range

Open up the glass bottle and pour the sand in
Let your feelings and hurt not be captured within
Abandon them all with the little particles
And trap them inside the bottle hoping for a miracle
But let only the bottle drift into the sea
And have the strength to kick down those emotional walls
Some would refuse to accept what they see
As they think that everything might be false
Don't give up hope just before you found the answer
It would be a waste of effort running in circles
If one would be careless and call you silly
Let them know that you are simply being merry

As darkness falls after the sun had set
Night souls begin to wonder the grounds
Be them real or fake
But both having similar fate
Once before they were traind
The loss of light made them scream
But once used to console and courage
Darkness became a face of good and evil

The tape goes winding and winding
My mind goes pounding and pounding
As the days are passing and passing
Everything piles up like nothing and nothing
Thinking of how to be happy while waiting and waiting
Backspacing every word as they keep coming and coming
“Tell me why” keeps running and running
How much longer is this poem going and going

Words unsaid lies in my mind,
As i sit there wasting my time.
Once or twice i would give a try,
But all times ended with a goodbye.
Its not like i wanted it this way,
But if i insisted you would keep me at bay.
Songs so meaningful just keep getting played,
And it feels like my heart is being slayed.
When would this end, i would ask,
But the answer never appears as it cotinues to last.

As i lie down late at night,
All i could think was you, my knight.
When i remember the moments past,
I would try to forget them fast.
It pains me much to recall,
Especially when towards you i fall.
Though it feels stupid to be like this,
But it wouldn't go away with just fists.
If someone would just start me anew,
Perhaps that would help us few.

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